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PERSONAL INFORMATION

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MEMORY PAGE OF MY CATS--PART 3
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KISSY AND PYEWACKET
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Wizard's Journal

~~~Not Too Personal Though!!~~

Greetings! 
 
  It's only been recently that I started on embarking on my journey in getting my life back on track again, after far too many years of neglect upon myself, of my needs, my ambitions, my dreams, and of all those goals I had set for myself  when I was younger, and wanted to see manifest in my life.
 
  For too many years, I have had a lot of unforeseen obstacles thrown into my path in life.  None of them of course, were planned.  One of those obstacles has been dealling with panic disorder with agoraphobia.  There was one point in my life where I was completely housebound~~I couldn't even leave my apartment to go and get the mail, without freaking out with anxiety/panic attacks.  I am now considered a recovering "phobic" and have been listening to Lucinda Bassett's "famous" 15-tape program,"Attacking Anxiety"---but I feel at times as though I'm going at a snail's pace..
 
   As if developing, out of the blue, this stupid (and yes, it's stupid) condition weren't enough, other obstacles and negative conditions were thrown into my life, such as having felt the need in taking on responsibilites and shouldering the burdens of mananging and "taking care" of things, that shouldn't have been mine in the firsr place.  All these obstalces were to put my goals and ambitions in life to a screeching halt.
 
  No, the circumstances haven't changed in my life--yet--they are still  dangling in front of me--but the years are slipping by all too fast---and I'm not getting any younger--Oh how I wish I had Hermione Granger's time turner and go back in time.  But I can't let any more years slip by without going after my dreams--and they are many.
 
  Perhaps there are several people I have to thank for inspiring me to get my life on track again.  One is Julia Cameron --I devour her books (The Artist's Way and The Right To Write) and view them almost like bibles for those of us who are not only creative, artistic people such as myself, but those books are ideal for anyone who wishes to get on with their lives.  Another instrumental book, is by Barbara Sher, entitled, "Wishcraft" and is great for goal-setting.
 
  And lastly, believe it or not, there's the actor Viggo Mortensen, who played the role of Aragon in the Lord Of The Rings movies.  He's not only an actor, but artist, photographer, writer like myself--oh yes--I also studied acting in my younger years.
 
 You'll perhaps notice here on my site, that I have rather upbeat sayings and quotes.  Oh, yes, I could have written out really dismal, depressing, negative blogs, but life can be negative enough--I save all my "angst" entries in my own private journal/morning pages and that is for me to read alone~~So I choose to post things that are rather upbeat.  They make me feel good, and I hope anyone else reading my site will feel good as well.
 
  Enjoy my site~~Welcome~~

It's funny--perhaps I am getting better and overcoming my panic disorder and agoraphobia--without medication, I might add-----even though I don't think so, or at least, not fast enough as I'd like--cause only a few years ago, I never used to want to admit that I had a "problem"---Like most phobics, we all tend to hide our problem--we don't want to appear weak, or falliable --After all, to admit we have such a problem--oh my goodness!! What will people think??  Most phobics greatest fears I suppose is the attitude or viewpoint of others will have of us if they found out we have this problem--they'll think--oh, my gosh--this person is a looney tune.  
  Now here I am admitting to just about anyone and everyone who will listen (poor person--LOL) about my problem----But you know what??  It has been therapy in itself for me to admit to my problem, cause, gee!!  Everyone has problems--Everyone has some "thing" that they are dealing with.  With me it's panic disorder with agoraphobia--with someone else they might be a struggling alcoholic or drug abuser trying to overcome their problem; another might be clinical depressed, or dealing with an abusive spouse, etc.etc.--We all have something to deal with, and it doesn't make us any less worthy.
 
  Panic disorder is nothing more than overblown anxiety gone haywire, and who doesn't have anxiety, especially nowadays with the world the way it is---I just have to keep reminding myself, if I'm having an "anxious" episode--it's just anxiety, nothing more--I'm not going to pass out, go crazy or die--it shall pass.
 
  Oh, yes, I might whine and wonder why all these negative circumstances have occurred in my life, and at times feel completely overwhelmed by it all, but by my having opened up to people, and most importantly, listen to the negative circumstances  going on in other peoples lives, my problems sometimes seem so insignificant, and makes me realize that no one is immune from problems in life.
 
  One thing that amazes me is that, here I am in front of a computer--usually at a library or Internet place--you see I don't have my own computer yet--but only a little while ago, I could never have imagined myself out for several hours, away from home, in a public place doing stuff on a computer--and my incentive for learning is of all things--being a Lord Of The Rings fan I wanted to join the official club--and it has to be done all online---now of course, I can't wait to get my own as I'm a computer geek!
 
 Now, perhaps the reason I'm writing all this is that if any of you reading this happens to have panic disorder, agoraphobia, or extreme social phobias, I invite you to contact me--perhaps we can do a support thing to help each other out.
 
  I include here some websties that may prove a help to anyone else who has a similar problem as myself:
 
  THE MIDWEST CENTER FOR STRESS AND ANXETY, INC
   This is the "home" of Lucinda Bassett's "famous"  15-tape audio tape program
   and is the one I've been using.
 
   POWER OVER PANIC
 
   ANXIETY ONLINE REFERRAL:
    This includes a listing of therapists who specialize in anxiety problems.
     www.anxietyreferralonline.com



       Another "haunt" of mine is:
 
 
 
Feel free to visit any of these sites

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